MILWAUKEE HAS...

Some of the biggest dream selling, free handout wanting, bullshitters I've ever come in contact with. Ok, so you got a song on the radio...AND?!!? That bullshit you're talking about on your record isn't going to last forever. But don't mind me, ride that bitch til the wheels fall off. Wish you all of the luck and success in the world.

There's one guy in particular that makes me cringe every time I see him calling. Answering his calls and talking to him is like...Scratching your nails down a chalkboard. Obnoxious...Annoying...and full of SHIAT! I mean his conversations are cool if they don't relate to anything business like...But when it does fall into that topic...He's like...God at this shit. Or at least that's what he thinks.

Why do I still associate myself with him might you ask? Well, I still gotta give him the benefit of the doubt. As much as I FEEL that he's full of it, I really haven't had the chance to let him prove that to me. So far, it's all talk. And it's been this way for the past two years. Actually, it's one...because I took a year long hiatus from his ass.

Anywho, there's just something FISHY about his energy. I'm familiar with the type of person he is. He's a fucking moocher. Any dumb cunt that lets him hit, ends up being his, "Sugar momma" for awhile. And honestly, I feel he has the same intentions with me. Sans the sexual part.

I think he sees a meal ticket. And it's kind of funny, because I know he thinks I'm down for this shit. But really...I'm just scoping him out.

CHECKING IN;

Hey everyone! It's been a minute since my last post. Thought I come through and wipe some dust off this bitch. I've been checking in on you guys though and what you've been posting.

Haven't been up to much. Been gambling a lot. Hopefully this snow will keep me from going anywhere. Been getting some body work done on my car. Got about halfway to go but I think I'll take care of the unnecessaries next season. Got to get myself a side mirror though ASAP. I hit that bitch against the drive through window at Popeye's. Why the hell are they so narrow?!!?

Anywho, I got to work late, if not all day on Thanksgiving. So....there goes Thursday. I actually plan on dropping by the casino after work.

Other than that, I'm just ready for winter to pass on by.

LOOK...I KNOW I'M WRONG.

I know ok. I know.

I thought for a few minutes about how I can re-word this just in case...someone on this site knows who I am. But fug it. It wouldn't sound realistic.

So there's this girl. Who claims to have gotten knocked up by my brother. Personally, I don't think that's my brother's baby judging from the photos. And I don't know what happened during their relationship...But they broke up. My brother moved on...who now has a son who looks exactly like him. And I guess he hasn't been in touch with her months prior to her (the estranged baby mother) giving birth.

She's talked to me a few times. Before the birth and a little afterward. I've actually tried to steer my attention elsewhere being that it isn't my business...and ultimately...I really don't care. And alot of that has to do with the fact that I don't believe that that's my nephew. But I do feel bad. Like...I would HATE to be in that situation. And the worst part is...me and her went to school together. Not that we talked a whole lot. But still. And at times, I thought about actually being involved with that kid's life. Like what if it is my nephew. You know? I thought about...stepping up to the plate and picking up the kid...Cause really my family don't consist of too many kids. Not that it has to do with anything but...I just get that feeling in my heart that wants the company of a child.

Anywho...My brother is going through his situation. And the estranged baby mother is looking for him all around town. Putting out warrants. She's pulling up to my parent's homes looking for him. I know that has to be odd considering the fact that she's never met my parents. I know I'm wrong for lying to the girl. And I know that she knows. I mean...what? You want me to rat my brother out? So he can get locked up? I mean me and him don't have a decent relationship. But...I wouldn't do that. Under any circumstances.

I hate this. And I hate that she has all of my emails...phone numbers. I hate lying to her.

I don't think I'm the bad guy in this case. I'm just keeping my mouth shut.

I THINK IT'S SAFE TO SAY;

That it's oooooooovvvvvvvvveeeeeeeerrrrr...

And while...I'm dead inside, it's literally time to move on.

Probably will need a little more time...already being added to the time I've already wasted...hanging on to hope...wishing...hoping...

But I think I've gotten the closure...I've long awaited for.

So with that said...

I'm happy for you.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I got a chance to catch up with a good guy friend of mine and we chatted it up a bit tonight. Apparently, me and him have different views on relationships and dating. He's more experimental and willing. I'm more reserved. I try to see things his way but I find it rather difficult. I'm sure he feels the same about me.

My friend is in his early thirties and is single. Huge player. He's always telling me about new girls he's seeing everytime I talk to him. All pretty by the way. To my understanding, he's sleeping with all of them. And I believe at least one of the women thinks that my friend is seeing her exclusively. She kept calling when we were at the restaurant and he kind of gave, "It" away when he asked me not to talk when he'd answer. He tells me the women know that he's out and about with other girls. And even if that were true (I doubt it), why the hell would a woman want...a man that's with a different woman every night? Is it the sex? The attention? The company? Needless to say, there are definitely women out there that wants a man to satisfy particular needs minus the commitment. I asked him if he was happy with his lifestyle. And he replied yes.

Now my story. I'm young and single. I kind of quit the dating thing because...Well...I concluded it was alot of time wasted. I wish I could skip the who dating thing and jump right into love. But it doesn't work that way. I'm the type of woman that doesn't want a relationship unless I'm madly in love with that person. If I'm in a relationship with a someone that I'm not madly in love with, then they're not going to get the me that I can give. They're just going to get a diluted version. If I'm not one hundred percent completely in it and head over heels, then I'd rather be single and just wait until I get smashed over the head with that feeling again. I'm currently at the point where I'm ready to fall in love and be with just one person. I honestly believe that love will find you. So there's really no need to look. And I see dating as a way for people to not feel alone in certain aspects. And what they’re doing is they're taking up that room in their lives. They’re occupying that space that should be left open for the right one. I'm not afraid to be alone. I mean, I don't like it. But if that's what it takes in order for me to get to the right one, then I can withstand it. Now this is what I explained to him.

He says when he was my age, he had the same outlooks. And he feels that he wasted a huge part of his life. Well what he exactly said was, "I should've been f-cking." Not saying that he wants me to do that. I guess he feels like, at thirty something, he should be considering kids and marriage. Yet, he's not ready because he didn't live his life. Basically, he told me that I should be happy and enjoy this part of my life. I should be having fun because once I get older, I have to leave all of this behind and grow up. Which I totally understand.

Now my question to you is...What are your views on dating? Is it worth the time? And why?

SOMETHING TO CONSIDER;

I've got tons of female friends who need to read shit like this! Maybe this will open up their eyes!

*I stole this from another blog site and it definitely made me think*

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay..
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is
Don't stay because you think "it will get better"
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior.* Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
Even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending....
Compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you....
A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals....
Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*
Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful:
You should know that:
You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.
They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices.
Make the right one.
Ladies take care of your own hearts....
Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

BWAHAHAHA!

I was sorting through my music library on my Windows Media Player and I came across, "98 Degrees." I'm sure you guys probably don't know who they are but they're an old boyband from who knows when. Nick Lachey was the lead vocalist for the group and he's best known for being Jessica Simpson's ex-husband.

I actually bought their album entitled, "The Revolution." I used to be CRAZY about boybands! N'Sync, Backstreet Boys...

It kind of made me chuckle a little bit when I was playing some of these old tunes. I miss the old days.........

"EYE CANDY"

Demo clip that was produced and written by me. The entire song has already been referenced but I had to chop the length due to it being a demo. Enjoy!

http://www.zshare.net/audio/6465080366f24a53/

I'M BIZZACK!!!

I'm not dead. I just been hiding out for a little bit. Focusing on work really. Been trying to stack up after losing gobbs amount of money at the casino. Geesh.

I've been trying to tap into my inner singer/songwriter character. Currently working on some interesting pieces so stay tuned to hear it.

My birthday was two weeks ago. :D.

I put off working out for awhile now and I think its time to get back in and get it popping again. There's this cute guy there that I always look forward to seeing when I'm at the gym.

You know what, I always thought that being a CNA, One would have all of the opportunities to make a living from it. Until recently, My friend lost her job and hasn't been able to find one. AT ALL!!! I was telling myself like...How in the hell does that shit happen!?!? I thought anything in the medical field is popping.

And the other day she.............Asked me for money. Now, I'm a good friend. And would..."Help" anyone who is close to me in their time of need. But really. Is that always a good idea? Truth be told, I would. It's just the way she asked me. It kind of threw me off a little.

She texted me like, "You should let me hold $30 dollars."

Now let me ask you this. Is that an appropriate way to ask someone to loan you some money? A close friend at that? I certainly don't think so. And I didn't like the fact that she couldn't ask me in an honest way. I'm sure it had to do something with her ego too. I remember I use to tell her shit like, Dang I wish I made as much money as you. And I use to tell her all of the time to save some of that money for a rainy day. (She's one of those, "Flashy" type folks). And she actually use to make fun of my occupation. Anyways,

I text back like, "I don't care. How you want to pick it up?"

We go back and forth for a little then she decides to not borrow the money. I remember telling her later on that day that I was headed to the casino. As always, I walk out empty handed then she texts me like, "I will take you up on your offer."

And I'm like WWWWWHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAATTTTTTTTT? OFFER?!!!? Then I just made an excuse about me not having money. Only if she would have asked me in a nicer manner, I definitely would have helped her out. I can spare $30 dollars for the most part. You have no idea how much I lost at the casino in the month of August alone. But in the end, You should never do business with friends...RIGHT?

I called an old flame of mine and played Ne-Yo's - Do You on their voicemail. It's been awhile since the last time I talked to them...And I miss them. So I did what I did. It's not crazy is it? NNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

So next day, I'm like whatever. I'm not doing that shit again. Because 99% out of a 100, They know it's me. And guess what? He called me. But I didn't answer. What was I gonna say? I know, I know. It was immature. But how else could I have expressed my feelings to him...In a way where I could maintain my anonymity?

Ok then.

DON'T YOU HATE IT...

When you're trying to cancel your account with a company and customer service is trying their best to talk you out of it?!!?

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!!

Just cancel the fucking account!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE WORLD IS GOING TO END!!!;

Supposedly.

I saw the trailer to, "2012" a month ago and I've been intrigued since. Normally, I don't buy into the, "Judgement day" stuff...But after doing some research...I kind of have a change of heart. See. The world is dated to end on December 21, 2012. And by end...It's probably going to explode or...Wipe out every living thing through natural disasters. What's scary is that the fact that history supports such theories. If I remember correctly (According to my research), The date 2012 is cited somewhere in the Christian Bible as saying thats when the rapture will come. Not to mention the Mayans were the first to predict this.

Do your research!!!

PULL YA JET SKI'S OUT!!!!!

I been down at lakefront these past two hot ass days!!! Doing what might you ask? Frolicking with the waters on my jet ski!!! I fell into that nasty ass water today though. : /. I need to get myself a waterproof camera! And driving through downtown, I never realized how beautiful the scenery is on that side of town. I definitely need to hangout there more often. Seen some nice restaurants that caught my eye.

SO I HAD A TALK WITH MY FRIEND;

During one of our conversations, she mentioned that I need to get out and mingle and quit reminiscing on a certain someone. Which is generally true. But my response was...Why waste my time dating...And searching so I could end up with someone who well isn't worth my time. And ending up with someone whose more than likely to not be in my life in the long run? She agreed with my response...But she'd rather be, "Out here" than be alone and lonely.

I wonder if I am the only one who thinks that way...

See I'm the type of chick who will NOT get myself into a relationship unless I'm REALLY REALLY in love with someone. And I feel like, if I do put myself in that situation...Knowing I don't have feelings for that person...That person won't be getting 100% of me. They're only going to get a diluted version. You know? And in the end...That's only going to cause confusion, hurt and time wasted.

RIDIN THROUGH YA CITY, SITTIN PRETTY;

I had sooooooooooooo much fun Sunday night. Even if we did drive around the city all damn night. It'd be the most fun I've had in a minute. I had the following day off so you know I was up extra late. Ooh! Did I tell you? I went to my co worker's wedding who is of the Pakistani race. And it was soooooooooooooo awkward! I mean, I knew no one...Well, I knew the guys mostly...But in their marriage ceremonies, the men aren't supposed to be in the same room with women. And guys...I knew NO ONE. Talk about being the oddball!!! Everyone else was all covered up...dressed a certain way. And me looking all cute. I'm kind of glad I went because it gave me a whole different view on how I thought about them. But that will be the last!

So basically, I had no fun at the wedding...So I called up my guy and we decided to go driving. Then ended up at Denny's for some French Toast...Then called it a night. Sounds boring huh?

RECORD LAB;

I haven't been on my music grind as of late. But that don't mean I'm not out here searching high and low for a place to call my second home. I've been producing from out of my room since I started making music. And I wanted to experiment with live instruments and etc. I learned one thing; Don't plan on having a production session when you barely know how to play the piano.

The place was cool though. Classic synthesizers, real drum sets, guitars...You name it. But I think I'll continue to work out of my room for the time being.

And here's a another one;

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW...;

That Nelly made a video for this song! I been bumping this for a minute!

DOLCE & GABBANA;

I took my mom out shopping today for her, "Pre-Mother's day" present(s). And Boston Store is on FIRE!!! It was so many got damn people in the fragrance and cosmetics aisle, You could barely walk! And I happened to look for an addition to my perfume collection!

I bought my friend Dolce and Gabbana's, "Light" fragrance last year for her birthday and just fell in love with it! Now then, I paid about $80.00 for the fragrance bottle alone. Today, I paid about $90.00 and got what you see in the photo! Ain't that a deal?!!?

WORKIN;

Had an unproductive session today. Waste of time!!!

Some dude in the studio asked me if I was in a magazine last year or so...

I was like, "....Yep."

; D

4/20/2009;

I was suppose to send out some stuff to The Source Magazine and Drum Squad a few weeks ago. And I didn't get to putting the stamps on the envelopes until today. LOL. My manager thinks I BEEN sent the s--- out. (Don't tell him).

Well, I overlooked my list of followed blogs today and had to remove myself from some of them. Due to inconsistency of posts or what not.

I copped a KeyRig 49 over the weekend and I'm back to the basics.

Here's some 2006 material;

MY KEYBOARD IS BROKEN;

It's not quite a keyboard. It's actually a midi controller and it's my first and only one. It was given to me by my late friend, "Koolaid." It's been broken for about, three days now. Not that I was planning on working on something new anyway. I've been m.i.a for a minute with this music stuff. About a month maybe.

I'm planning on going to pick up a new one this weekend. Maybe something with more keys. Meanwhile, I'm organizing my software's library and picking up on material that I left hanging. OMG, If you're one of the artists that know me, You'd know I'm always half assed when I make a joint. Like, I'll start on a beat, that's hot to def but will get lazy halfway. So it'll remain a snippet until I get back to it. So me without my keyboard gives me the time to finish up some stuff I don't think I could've if it were still working.

I'm currently going back and forth with She'nice (Tweet's daughter) about possibly working with her and laying down some tracks for her music career. She is definitely a star. So let's see how this will work out.

IN CLASS;

I'm taking prep classes now because I want to switch majors. And while I'm doing this, I'm wrapping up my bachelor's in accounting and finance. And there's this community center I'm going to which is also an adult GED program.

I was going to blog on Tuesday about my first experience. But I reconsidered because I was tired. Anyways, I was sitting next to this chick, who I assume was the culprit, who had a STANKIN ass breath!!! Like really folks? Gum isn't anything but 35 cents. And it was like she kept sighing out loud and her breath was strong enough to lift the papers on the table. If my breath was that bad, I'd keep my mouth shut.

So it's all quiet in the room. I get a text from my friend that calls for a hilarious response from myself. See. I'm the type of person who has a ton of inside jokes. Like I'll sit and think of certain things and laugh to myself about them. I found myself wanting to laugh so hard literally but I didn't because I didn't want them to think I'm wierd. I had a huge smile on my face though.

Anyways today. I walk in and I notice I'm the youngest person there. And I'm the only person there taking prep classes. Everyone else was part of the GED program. And I felt bad looking at them because...They were much older than me. Any who...There was this man who I think is in his late forties to early fifties who was just the most obnoxious out of the bunch. You know what, it isn't even that surprising when I see an over grown person acting out in public. It was pathetic watching him, because everyone else was to themselves except him. He was the class clown so to speak. And he is OLD ASS HELL!!! And tell me why he was there trying to sell purses to his lady friends on the side. ????

And let me say, I was the most attractive person in that room . Not even being arrogant folks. I was sitting across from this scroney dude who looked decent. But I could tell he took public transportation. BWAHAHAHA (I'm kidding). Nah, But dude's breath was not inviting. I caught a whiff when he yawned without covering his mouth. And he's wearing name brand clothing and he has on a grill!!! IDK if gum chewing and mouth pieces go together, But still. Mints couldn't hurt.

There's this chick in the class that looks exactly like my friend's ex, But fat. So I text my friend like, "There's a fat version of Destiny in my class." So he's like, "Lemme see." For about five minutes I tried to take a pic of her without having her nor anyone else notice I was. But I was unsuccessful.

I pulled out my summer car today. I've retired my 4X4 and now leaving ya'll in the dust.

IS GRINDING...

I finally got my prints for my press kit. Got my demo's lined up and I'm ready to send this ish out. And I'm going to be crossing my fingers that it gets to that ONE person.

Finally got my OFFICIAL agreement put together for artists interested in working with me.

Besides putting my press kit together, I've been submitting material for commercials. Getting in touch with local promoters who know some people who know some people.

And with all of this on my plate...I'm pushing my wack ass nine to five.

THIS IS JUST IN;

Man I told everyone and their mother's this story. Why not my beloved followers?

So this past Thursday, I had the duty of working first shift (5 am - 2 pm). As usual, I'm running late and I just HAD to pick me up some Mickey D's. You know they got that two for three deal going on and I just couldn't pass it up. So I get out of McDonald's...I look at the clock and it's like...5:06. (I was already panicking since I left my house which was like fifteen minutes earlier). Thank god there's no traffic that early...I be doing 60 - 70 mph out here.

So I pull up to this street...And I swear the red light at this particular street take sooooooooooooooo long to switch green. So I look around for cops and whatever...None in sight. So I decide to take, "My shortcut" through a store's parking lot. And this is a big ass parking lot too. And I'm ever so familiar with this area because I come through this way all the time. So I'm like, Ba da boom, Ba da bing. Now maybe it's just me, Or maybe my eyes didn't want to act right that morning. And if you know me at all, You'd know I don't have good eye sight. Especially when driving at night. (Don't ask why I don't wear glasses).

So, I pull into the parking lot right and I see that the lamp posts were out. And my headlights just don't do it for me in these type of situations. So as I'm trying to find my way through the darkness, I'm thinking to myself like, Ok...You've been here before...You know theres a curb right there...Don't turn yet. I drive up a little further...And decide to turn. It felt like I went over a speed bump or something. And I happen to look at the ground and all I see is grass?!!? Then I got scared. I was like WTF??!!!? Next thing I know, My car dives off the curb and is now driving on the parking lot pavement again.

So I'm looking around right. And I see all these cars in the lot. And I'm like, Why the f--- are there so many cars parked up at Target at some five in the morning? And there was one car in specific that was pointed my way with their headlights on. And I just knew whoever that was in that car, Saw every damn thang! I bet they were thinking like, "This motherfucker is drunk!"

Then I felt embarassed. And terrified! Man, I swear I be so lucky when it comes to me being behind the wheel!

IN THE STUDIO;

Out of all places to be on this Friday, I'm in the studio. I would post some pics but ain't nobody here but myself to take em for me. Ummmmmmm...There's a big ass bass here and surprisingly it isn't that hard to play. Here's a sample of what I incorporated with that bass. I hate stock sounds so this won't be the final version.

Other than that, Lately, I've been on some disco ish. My last few productions have been layered with funky bass lines and heavy synths. HMMMMMMMMMMMMM...I wonder why.

HE IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE!

*Teddy Riley's son*

SOUNDS OF THE FUTURE;

Circa 2008.

I went back into the studio to re-do the rhodes on this joint. The original had a, "Delay-ish" sound. Note, Producers should always have their material mixed properly!

SO YOU ORDERED ALL THIS?!!?

All of this snow I mean.



*35th street*

*View of my back alley*...You know you wanna see it!

*Sorry. Bad camera on my phone. : /*

I don't keep track of the forecast, So if a tornado was to come through here, I wouldn't know. So as usual, I'm already at a late start waking up (I work Saturdays so its a plus when I wake up when I should). I go out to start my car, And its like snow errrrrrrrrrr wurrrrrrrrr. LOL. And being that I woke up extra late, I ended up checking in like thirty after. Even though I have a four wheeler, I be terrified driving in snow. It was all type of people doing thirty and up out there.

Soon as I left the south side, I then headed to a baby shower all the way on the other side of town. Luckily, The freeway was clear by the time I got out. I didn't stay too long though. Came home, Watched back to back episodes of forensic files.

*Things that happened since the last post*

-Did I tell you I bought an HP Mini? Well I did. And it works great. Small, Compact. But just after two weeks of ownership, It has been infected by a virus. And Best Buy wants two hundred!!??!! HELL TO THE NO!

-Oh! I did get my hair done. Now Great Clips, I would go back...For haircuts, Treatments etc. But not for anything major. I'll go back to Hair and Paradise for my perms. Even though I don't like the way they do things, They get the job done and you get what you paid for. I totally wasted $90.00 and now I'm going to have to drop $150.00 more to get it done the right way. And my phone was off the hook that night!!! It took five hours, I had to cancel all of my plans for the rest of that day and I was starving!

-What did you do for Valentine's day? I got a rose and a hershey's kiss from a mutual friend who works across the street. And I got a half assed phone call from my ex. I guess he wanted to grab my attention or something. ???

-Someone asked for me to produce majority of their album. And the sound she wants to go for is the, "Lady GaGa", "Rihanna-esque" type thing. Not that I mind but I feel like she WANTS to go into this direction because thats whats out right now. I'm not saying she's fake but we'll have to see. I haven't said yes yet. It's a very complicated process you guys. I have to talk to her about paper agreements, Royalties, Credits and if she will meet me half way. See, There aren't enough open studio's in this city so I can free work.

-I got picked for jury duty. "Not understanding and speaking english," was my excuse. I never been in a court room and from watching all types of Judge Judy's and Mathis', It seemed interesting. But I don't have the time nor do I have the money to pay for parking.

$175.00 for a perm?

Are you out of your mind?!!? Please say it ain't so.

Today was a beautiful day in the neighborhood. Sunny. Warm. Windy, But tolerable. So I thought it was about that time I got my hair done. I got a perm in June of 2008. And it lasted up til now. I gave the salon a call. And I go to this salon often for waxing and servicing. So I'm thinking they're going to give me a break. Not on no freebie shit, But give me a hell of a good price just because I'm a valued customer. And they fucks with my mom. So you know, I thought it was all love.

So I call like, "This the chick that comes in for eye brow waxing. I want to know how much you'd charge me for a perm?" And the lady is like, "You're the girl with all that hair. $175.00." I was like, "WWHHHHATTTTT? You only charged me $80.00 last year and I thought THAT was too much!" And she goes, "Well, Your hair has gotten longer since then. You remember we had to use three boxes of chemicals to cover every strand of hair on your head, It took an hour just to put on those rollers, And three more to finish the entire perm-ing process?"

It blew me the hell away. And I already know how things are done in this salon. Their prices are NEVER consistent, They don't take professional measures to ensure that their clients are comfortable. Like last year, I had to, "Assist" them while getting my hair done. There was perm chemicals dripping down my face, Onto my clothes. They ain't even shampoo that bitch out completely...And they be overcharging muhfuggas! Now I could take my ass to Great Clips or something. But I gotta wait damn near two weeks to get in that bitch. I'm an impatient gal, And when I want something done, I want it DONE! I was damn near ready to pay that $175.00 to get my shit done, But luckily my homie talked some sense into me.

See I was on the phone the first time. And the lady that gave me the estimate over the phone was the one who serviced me last year. I had to make a visit up there just so they knew who they were dealing with. So the woman who normally does my waxing is like, "You already know I gotta tax you." Then she starts running her fingers through my hair while shaking her head. And she has that look on her face like, "Jesus I hope I'm not the one who she requests to do her perm."

So I just ran a little game on her (I'll be back, What time you open? I'll call before I come). But I was thinking to myself like they think I'm dumb. I gave Great Clips a call. This entire week is booked so I know I ain't getting perked up anytime soon. But I'm looking at, $80 - $100 with them. Not bad but they better not not try no shady shit with me man. Like, "I ain't know you had this much hair, I'm going to charge you for the extra amount of products used on you hair." *Eyeroll*

I WANT A MAC!

Ok. So am I the only producer out here that isn't working with a Mac book? If I am, Someone please put me up on some game. I'm planning on getting one a few weeks from today.

Aren't they the most expensive pieces of shit you've ever seen? Well, Excluding the ballers...Cause you see...I'm poor. : ). The only reason why I need one is because my PC has too many production softwares on it, So when I'm running a bunch of channels in one session, The playbacks tend to get a bit glitchy. Therefore, Putting a damp on my, "Shitting on these producers" mission. And it can't continue.

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AT EASE;

Here's some new material from 2k9. I felt, "At ease" in the process of this composition. I've felt that I've left everything negative in my life in 2008...And now I have the future to look forward to. And that explains the sunset photo or what not. I guess the track makes you feel like you're staring into one with a blank imagination. At least I do.

ZODIAC STUFF PT2

You will rediscover yourself this year. You will experience love and have amazing relationships throughout the year 2009. This is a new era for you and you couldn’t be happier. It’s all over now- the problems in yester-years, so breathe that overdue sigh of relief already because 2009 promises the lions and lionesses of the universe nothing less than the royal treatment.

You will be able to choose from a long and sexy list of admirers just waiting for you. All you have to do is show up, Leo. You could be hot and heavy with a Cancer, Sagittarius or a sexy new Aquarius. A Capricorn could also come in at the very last minute and turn things upside down for you in sex and love matters. Anything goes in 2009 and you should be feeling youthful, energized and happy once and for all with sex and love relationships. Relationships in this year will be magical, fun and not so much work. You will also find your lover to be much more attentive than you previously imagined. A Virgo will surprise you

Just don’t make any promises you cannot keep, Leo. You may feel blue during the beginning of January, but February and March will brighten up your mood and sex drive. A Taurus and a Scorpio could be climbing to the top and you may want to join them during March. You could make money with these two signs, Leo. You dear Leo may have to make a romantic choice once and for all. Someone this year is going to issue a declaration of love or you could get a romantic ultimatum. Decide once and for all what you are going to do about your marital status.

You and another Leo will not only look good together, you will make music together. It could happen very quickly and escalate from there. August will be a standout month. Remember not to upstage another Leo while you are in public together. The outcome of this relationship, however, may not be what either of you had anticipated. Be very careful with another Leo especially during 2009. This year will enhance creativity as never before and inspire your desire to act, paint, dance or pursue something that is personally meaningful to you. You may feel driven or obsessed with a new hobby. Prepare to succeed with a Taurus, Virgo or Scorpio in a creative or business endeavor throughout summer and through fall. Aspects for making money during this time are ideal. You will be surprised by who attends your parties this year. You will be popular, charismatic and sexy beyond belief throughout 2009. Your best months for the year are February, May and November. Your most memorable months are February and September. You may discover that changes you made in your professional and personal zones at the end of 2008 were to your benefit in more ways than you imagined.

*Courtesy of findyourfate.com*

I think this description on how my life might be in 09 is more in depth, As I should say. As far as my romantic relationships are involved anyway. It didn't tell me much about my finances, Neither did it give me a brief overview of what may be in general. Like, New additions to the family or possible vacations. Compared to Yahoo's horoscope section, FindYourFate tells me more of what I want to hear. But I can appreciate Yahoo.

ZODIAC STUFF

Year 2009 Overview

In 2009, you find yourself connecting with people effortlessly as your warm-hearted actions are acknowledged and radiated back to you in a way you've never experienced before. The confident joy and happiness you freely give to others gives you the innate ability to be productive. For you, kind actions are the way to transformation and success.

This is a perfect time for proud Leo, because you have the desire, drive and power to help society. You realize there's work to do, and you'll give a helping hand wherever you can. You are ready to align yourself with a higher level of awareness, and exhibit a regenerative attitude is about reaping the harvest by submitting to the larger purpose. What you are able to give to others directly reflects the transformation happening within you.

Your heart is in the right place, and you are likely to accomplish all that you set out to do this year. You're developing excellent skills in your own personal transformation process, and you are ready to make the conscious decision to be the best you can be. You feel secure, and the beauty of who you are shines through easily and effortlessly.

Year 2009 Romantic

You feel as if you're reaping the harvest this year in your relationships. Socially, your connections are very positive and your altruistic, visionary personality brings you a great circle of friends. Very strong and intuitive, your sense of self-worth in a close relationship makes it a very loving and secure one -- your main focus for some time now. Your enthusiasm bubbles over as an intimate relationship blossoms, and the challenges of constructive communication become easier and easier.

Energetically, you are uplifted when you choose to be in a relationship and master the art of accepting someone as they are. In the springtime, your focus may shift to marriage as many blessings come your way, giving you opportunities to experience conscious acts of sharing, cooperation and honor. Things may seem to move fast, but if you go with the flow, you'll gain confidence in your progress.

Much healing takes place when you have someone close to share your life with. Reap the rewards, and you will encounter feelings that will become the basis for far-reaching transformation in your life -- and in that of others as well. Leo's need to be in charge is no problem, because you and your partner are energetically and equally matched. Be grateful for the love and growth you are experiencing -- both metaphysically and spiritually.

Year 2009 Career

As you help others in your work, you find balance in your own life and, as a result, financial opportunities arise. You are far from conventional, and this helps you have no fear in starting new projects and developing ways for making a good living.

You are able to make major changes in your career without completely eliminating your current foundation. During the summer, career advancements streamline as greater responsibility and commitment come your way. This is an excellent time to focus on your ideals for social progress, and actualize them in a public sphere.

As a Leo, you have the communication skills required to bring new opportunities for growth. This year, you easily visualize new possibilities and eliminate potential roadblocks. Your co-workers appreciate your leadership skills and respect your ability to bring people and resources together for positive change. You may be conservative financially while learning to carve out ways of meeting your material needs, but you continue to draw greater resources to you to serve the greater good.

*This is courtesy of Yahoo astrology.*