SMOKED MY LAST SQUARE

I smoked my last freaking square that I promised I would. Well. Originally I was going to smoke as much as I could before 2009 because one of my resolutions for 09 is to quit cold turkey.

I had to go to work at like...4:30 a.m today. And I was down to my very last cig. As a daily routine, I smoke one cigarette going to work and another going home from work. And it was really unpleasant knowing that if I smoked it then, I wouldn't be able to smoke again later. I'm telling you...I've been smoking so long that this shit is a fucking NEED!

I decided to save my square for after work. And I forgot to cherish those last moments that I would ever have again with Marlboro. I was so in a rush to take my ass home, I completely neglected it.

Damn. Even though I really...REALLY want to quit smoking, I wish I had a square right now. Matter fact, I just remembered that I have no more.

See, Other than that daily routine I have, I have a routine too for when I decide to smoke in my home. When I smoke, I have to be on neutral. Either the music is playing or I'm reading something. But I can't smoke and engage in something that'll require physical movement. For example, I can't smoke and talk on the phone. I don't know why. I'll feel real uncomfortable. I'd have to call that muthafucka back after I finish my cigarette.

It's like I have a zone that I channel into when I'm with Marlboro. AHHHHHHHH...I'ma miss Marlboro. But that muthafucka ain't no good. I hope I stick with this. I tried sooooooooooooo many times to quit. It's really hard folks! But I'm going to try my best.

MEMPHIS IN MAY 2008

That freakin drive took forever. I wasn't suppose to go but my sister talked me into it. I wanted to go anyway. I wanted to visit my Aunt that I stayed with for a year when I relocated for school back in 2005 I think?

The trip wasn't even planned. I found out we were going down south maybe a few days before we left. Everything was unplanned. And I tried to hook up with all my friends...ex boyfriends lol from school. I was sad that I couldn't see them again when I took that trip. But hey?!!?...There's always MySpace.

Everything was a rush when we were there. Like we were in Smyrna because the reason we went in the first place was to visit my sister's man's family. Soon after we left to Murfreesboro to see my Aunt. UMMMMMMMMMM...Then left to Nashville. Went out to eat.



We attended a barbeque that didn't work out well. And someone said there was some festival going on in Memphis. And everyone was soooooooooooo unprepared. We had to go to Macy's to go pick out an outfit for that night. And changed into them right in the car.



Then drove for another two hours. When we got there...Like OMG! Traffic was a BEE-YOTCH! We had to walk a few blocks to actually get to Beale street.



I had so much fun! There was so many people. Drinks everywhere! Clubs everywhere you turned. It was really nice.

I wish I had my own camera. I used the camera on my phone to take some pics but I don't know where they are. I had to steal these pics from my sister's camera. And as you can see...She takes gay ass pictures.

I don't remember what club we were in that night. I think it's 405? 504? Some shit like that with numbers....It was CRACKING!!!!



Anyways I hope in the future I take more trips. I really want to go to L.A. On some biz shit though.

PLEASE LISTEN TO MY DEMO

SEPT/OCT 2007 #19 pg.89

And it partially states,

"In the quest to make tough guy beats for tough guy rappers, most producers overlook a woman's work".

"The Midwestern producer also mixes in some high energy Timbo-esque, "club joints" with a smooth yet frantic sound".


R.I.P SCRATCH MAGAZINE

R.I.P KOOLAID & LALA

It's been too long. And we miss you.

AISHA RAQUEL - "ELECTRICITY"

I don't even remember how long ago this song was done. I'm going to lie and say it's not more than three months old. I think she did a great job. This is the first collab we did together after meeting two years ago. Enjoy!

Here's the instrumental;